I married Jesus on December 2, 2007 (a.k.a. my baptism). But this whole time, I've been in this marriage as though it's an arranged one, as though I'm just in it just because it's the 'right' thing to do, and because I know He'll look after me now and in my old age. And He has been good to me. We've had some good times, some hard times, but all in all, I'm glad we got married...
But these past few weeks, I've actually fallen in love with my Husband. All of a sudden I realise that this Man, my friend, my looker-afterer, He who has been standing in front of me this whole time, is actually the love of my life, my soul-mate, the one I've been searching and praying and waiting for.
He makes me laugh. He makes me feel safe. He thinks I'm wonderful and beautiful. He gets my quirks and drama. He sees my uglies. He knows me inside and out. He's loyal and utterly drop-dead goooooorgeous. He's kind and dramatic and intelligent and spontaneous. He can paint and sing and write and He likes little kids like I do. He challenges me and makes me better. He makes me love myself. He completes me, in every way - everything I'm not, He is. It's a blossoming romance. We sit and people-watch. We go for drives. We talk about assignments and music and the reproductive system (no jokes). He never gets bored of me. And when I'm a jerk to Him, ignore Him, and get all pissy, He just waits patiently, fondly, for me to realise how lame I'm being. Sometimes He tells me off, or makes me do things I'm not totally comfortable with, but He's always got my back, and somehow it always turns out well.
I still want my Adam - my tangible, earthly, less-awesome version of Him. But for the first time in my life, God is way more important. God is the only one who can satisfy and love me fully. I know this is a 'mountain-peak moment' in my life, and soon enough I'll be down slogging it in the valley again. But something intrinsic has changed. Something unspeakably brilliant has happened in the space between Him and I. Something indelible has been written on my inmost part. My heart knows that I love, and am loved by Love Himself. How cool is that?
But these past few weeks, I've actually fallen in love with my Husband. All of a sudden I realise that this Man, my friend, my looker-afterer, He who has been standing in front of me this whole time, is actually the love of my life, my soul-mate, the one I've been searching and praying and waiting for.
He makes me laugh. He makes me feel safe. He thinks I'm wonderful and beautiful. He gets my quirks and drama. He sees my uglies. He knows me inside and out. He's loyal and utterly drop-dead goooooorgeous. He's kind and dramatic and intelligent and spontaneous. He can paint and sing and write and He likes little kids like I do. He challenges me and makes me better. He makes me love myself. He completes me, in every way - everything I'm not, He is. It's a blossoming romance. We sit and people-watch. We go for drives. We talk about assignments and music and the reproductive system (no jokes). He never gets bored of me. And when I'm a jerk to Him, ignore Him, and get all pissy, He just waits patiently, fondly, for me to realise how lame I'm being. Sometimes He tells me off, or makes me do things I'm not totally comfortable with, but He's always got my back, and somehow it always turns out well.
I still want my Adam - my tangible, earthly, less-awesome version of Him. But for the first time in my life, God is way more important. God is the only one who can satisfy and love me fully. I know this is a 'mountain-peak moment' in my life, and soon enough I'll be down slogging it in the valley again. But something intrinsic has changed. Something unspeakably brilliant has happened in the space between Him and I. Something indelible has been written on my inmost part. My heart knows that I love, and am loved by Love Himself. How cool is that?
Love. This. I will bookmark this post and read it over and over. Something I need to hear again and again. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteI love this post so much too! God is amazing and I'm glad I have him in my life.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much guys! Cool how we have the same husband but somehow that's not weird aye!!?
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